对前途的担忧
最近接到了能去一个课题组实习的机会，说实话，我以前没做过长时间的实习。而且，能去这么优秀的课题组实习也是头一次机会。老师给了一个project希望能做出来，我不知道自己的能力如何，是否真的能胜任。不过现在已经在很努力地学习了。
有点焦虑啊，万一去了被当成边缘人怎么办呢，万一不知道怎么办呢，万一…….
感觉有点惊慌失措，因为我感觉我的水平远没有达到那种程度，感觉自己可能就是刚刚看到（还不是摸到）门槛而已。好担心自己什么都做不出来，水平好差，难得的机会，感觉对自己的能力又失去信心了。
这几天都吓得发抖啊，感觉自己水平真不行，还没有经验啊，去了之后可能也不知道干啥，这个project可能也就问问学长，有点担心万一他被我问得不耐烦了怎么办。我都是反复搜索之后找不到答案才去问他的，哎，有点担心。
好焦虑啊。
Worries about the future
Recently, I got the opportunity to intern in a research group. To be honest, I’ve never had a long - term internship before. Moreover, this is the first time I’ve had the chance to intern in such an excellent research group. The teacher gave me a project and hoped I could complete it. I don’t know about my own abilities and whether I can really handle it. However, I’ve been studying very hard now.
I’m a bit anxious. What if I’m treated as an outsider when I go there? What if I don’t know what to do? What if…
I feel a bit panicked because I feel that my level is far from reaching that standard. It seems that I’ve just caught a glimpse of the threshold (not even touched it yet). I’m so worried that I can’t achieve anything. My level is so poor. It’s a rare opportunity, and I seem to have lost confidence in my abilities again.
I’ve been trembling with fear these days. I feel that I’m really not good enough and I don’t have any experience. Maybe I won’t know what to do after I go there. For this project, I may just ask my senior. I’m a bit worried that what if he gets impatient with my questions. I only ask him after repeatedly searching and not finding the answers. Alas, I’m really worried.
I’m so anxious.