2025年的第三天。

好想躺平啊。要是我能找到一份工作：工资不算太高，但是也能够养活自己；有充分的时间做自己的事，不会让整个生活都被工作占据；有充分的时间思考自己，不会天天内耗，那该有多好啊。

昨天看b站的时候，看到了深度学习之父杰弗里·辛顿（Geoffrey Everest Hinton）的故事：

杰弗里·辛顿成长于一个学术氛围浓厚的家族环境中。他的父亲是英国昆虫学家，其家族有众多杰出成员：高祖父是著名逻辑学家乔治·布尔（George Boole），创立的布尔代数是现代计算机逻辑运算的基础；堂姐琼·辛顿（中文名寒春）是核物理学家，参与过曼哈顿计划等 3。 他的求学生涯充满波折。18岁时进入剑桥大学国王学院，起初学习物理、化学和数学，但一个月后退学去打零工。次年尝试学习建筑学，仅坚持一天，后又选择哲学但半途而废，最后双修物理和生理学，于1970年获得实验心理学专业的毕业证 3。在如此曲折的过程后，他终于找到了兴趣所在，前往爱丁堡大学攻读人工智能博士学位，在克里斯托弗·朗吉特 - 希金斯（Christopher Longuet - Higgins）教授的指导下，于1978年完成学业 29。 在早期的学术生涯中，辛顿面临诸多困难。完成博士后研究后，由于在英国难以获取研究资金，他先后转战美国加州大学圣地亚哥分校和卡内基梅隆大学谋求发展。1987年，他移居加拿大，出任多伦多大学教授，同时加入加拿大高级研究所（CIFAR），领导神经计算和自适应感知项目 。

突然感觉他的人生就是我想要的，多次尝试人生的各种不同的可能，多去了解这个丰富而又多彩的世界，找到自己所热爱的领域，最终默默耕耘，做出有助于人类的成就。

感觉自己大学4年似乎都是白过的一样，花了很多时间去了解了各种不同的领域，但是最后都没能坚持下来，都是三分钟热情。虽然也了解到了自己有很多不擅长的地方，看到了自己人生各种不同的可能，但是如果回到大一，我可能会把自己所有的时间都集中在自己擅长的某一个领域上。

English version

The third day of 2025.

I really want to just lie flat. If only I could find a job: the pay doesn’t have to be too high, but enough to support myself; with ample time to do my own things, not letting work consume my entire life; with plenty of time to reflect on myself, not constantly draining myself internally, that would be so wonderful.

Yesterday, while browsing Bilibili, I came across the story of Geoffrey Everest Hinton, the father of deep learning:

Geoffrey Hinton grew up in a family environment rich in academic atmosphere. His father was a British entomologist, and his family boasts many distinguished members: his great-grandfather was the famous logician George Boole, whose Boolean algebra forms the basis of modern computer logic operations; his cousin Joan Hinton (Chinese name Han Chun) was a nuclear physicist who participated in the Manhattan Project, among others. His academic journey was fraught with twists and turns. At 18, he entered King’s College, Cambridge, initially studying physics, chemistry, and mathematics, but dropped out after a month to take odd jobs. The following year, he tried architecture, lasted only a day, then switched to philosophy but gave up halfway, finally double-majoring in physics and physiology, and graduated in 1970 with a degree in experimental psychology. After such a convoluted process, he finally found his passion and went on to pursue a Ph.D. in artificial intelligence at the University of Edinburgh, completing his studies in 1978 under the guidance of Professor Christopher Longuet-Higgins. In the early stages of his academic career, Hinton faced numerous difficulties. After completing his postdoctoral research, due to the difficulty in securing research funding in the UK, he moved to the University of California, San Diego, and then to Carnegie Mellon University in the US for development. In 1987, he relocated to Canada, becoming a professor at the University of Toronto and joining the Canadian Institute for Advanced Research (CIFAR), leading the Neural Computation and Adaptive Perception program.

Suddenly, I feel that his life is what I desire—trying out various possibilities in life multiple times, exploring this rich and colorful world, finding the field I am passionate about, and ultimately cultivating it silently to make achievements that benefit humanity.

I feel like my four years of university were almost wasted, spending a lot of time exploring various fields but never sticking to any, always just fleeting enthusiasm. Although I’ve come to understand many areas where I’m not skilled and seen various possibilities for my life, if I could go back to my freshman year, I might focus all my time on one area where I excel.